For my love..

I don't want to see you Sad, I want to see you Smiling, So, I have made a deal with myself..and.. "My Ego", I don't have to be right always, "My Anger", still I get mad at times, But you amazingly handle that, "My Attention-Seeker-side", although I die to get it all the time, "My Possessiveness", Although at times I feel like killing the third person, "My Rudeness", It goes well in phone but when I see you, I melt like an ice-cream, "My restlessness, I-Want-You-Here and Want-You-Now-Attitude", I just see your pictures and calm my heart, "My I-Don't-Care-Attitude", I care and care a lot, "I-Can-Live-Alone-Attitude", No, I can't. I need you so badly. "My-Leave-Me-Alone-Attitude", When I am angry or upset, its always better to have you beside. "My-Don't-Touch-Me-Attitude", Because when you hug me, everything gets into its place. "My-I-Won't-Call-Attitude", well I still do it at times, but you don't really wait for me to dial, do you? "Switching-Off-The-Phone_Mode", well, I still do that, but believe me I die to hear from you. The main point is I am not perfect, actually far from it, And I am filled with hundreds of flaws..alright.......... thousands of them, And the way you accept it is really extra -ordinary.. And I would kill to be with you for life, I am an Aries.. I talk rubbish and..words which can kill, Just know something, I love you and you make my life worth living.. I can and will happily handle all my above mentioned amazing sides, To see you happy, smiling and enjoying every moment of your life..



Love
Dharitri
Date - 09-02-2014

Sunga pitha preparation during Bhogali Bihu

POEM: The Eagle Way

I am an eagle, Not meant to be chained, Meant to fly, Killing all embarrassments, Fighting all insecurities, Making all uncertainties bow, But why is it happening now? That my claw feels chained and wings at rest, Though my eyes are pointed to where it is destined.
This craving for where I want to fly, Is eating my soul inside, I am certain its not safe there, Still the stubborn heart wants to try. This fire inside the heart wants to face, A few seconds of heart ache, Although it may bring death at that very moment. It thinks if somehow everything, Turns out to be something different, Like the eagle heart is hoping, If the fire I see from so far, Is actually a river of golden water, What if it turns out to be the heaven, I had longed for since long. I look at this chain and want to break free now, This may bring a few seconds of disappointment, But certainly an end to my curiosity,
And this pain I can't explain! Its rare, that I have taken so long to take off, And whenever I did, It brought a change for life..



Love
Dharitri
06-01-2014

Women Buying Bra

Women Buying Bra

Let’s talk about it. Talk about it in a way that it never remains a matter of embarrassment for the women kind to buy a bra. She should be as comfortable as if she is buying a bouquet. Especially the teenagers, who have just realised that their breasts are growing and they need to do something about it, need to take care of it. To support those breasts, they need bras and they need to buy it. Well, it’s not that simple, to go and buy a bra, like it sounds. So, what is the problem in buying it? The answer is, the “eyes”! The eyes of some sick and mentally unstable people are the reason behind it. Buying a bra shouldn’t be difficult task like rocket science or something like that. It is a necessary wear that a grown up girl needs for everyday use.

People might think, why suddenly, this thought of writing about it came to my mind? Well, today, while I was passing by Ganeshguri area, I saw three teenage girls stopping by a shop and checking out bras. They were not comfortable, their faces were down, as if they were doing some crime. They were not even looking at the salesman of the shop. They could see his cruel smile as he was showing them the bras. And then my eyes fell on other people around them. There was another shopkeeper in the opposite side of that particular shop and he was staring at them. There was one fruit seller who has stopped looking at his own customers and staring at those girls. There were two other middle aged men who were passing by and they stopped and stood in a corner to watch those bra buying girls. And that gave them a laugh. A boy, teenager himself, have forgotten to walk on the footpath as his gaze fell on the bras those girls were buying.

What on earth was going on! I wonder, do women keep staring at men when they buy under wears. I am sure, not. And this is not a unique story of those three teens. This is a common happening. It happens every day with woman of all ages, in shops, malls, everywhere. There are some women who have accepted this fact and they don’t really care. But why should it at all be an issue disturbing women. Have men, not seen enough bras in movies, magazines and now-a-days in hoardings and posters? Not to mention, they see it at their homes if they have any female in their lives. I mean, what is a bra (brassiere), it is a women’s undergarment for supporting the breasts. That’s it! And it should be left to that. This word “Bra” is not illegal; it should be spoken about openly. And if a girl finds a man staring at her while buying her undergarments she should be bold enough to ask him if he needs one. Who knows, that may bring some changes in those eyes! Some sick man shouldn’t be able to make us feel uncomfortable. They don’t even know the complications that come during the beginning stage of breast development and throughout the lives. And they for sure forget to respect the fact that they grew feeding on them. When one side of the world is talking serious about breast cancer, the scenario is very shameful here.

Love,

Dharitri

12-14-2013

POEM : Friendship Trip

This time, this union, this crazy moments,
Awesome it is and may be more,
Nothing like close friends getting together,
Food, liquid and addictive air.
Music, jokes and pictures clicked,
New memories are being built,
Chilling weather, killing wind,
Love in the air, friendship within.
Just a few hours more, to wind up this trip,
And the longing is gaining its weight,
That's gonna keep the spirit on,
To get together again,
Pack and grab a car,
Get crazy and make some memories for life..
I AM LOVING IT..



Love
Dharitri
25:12:2013

Poem: The Betrayer Shadow

The black shadow in and around me,
I want to get rid of it badly,
But here it comes again,
And shatters me into broken pieces.
These pieces I had collected and united long ago,
And had erased all the memories which needed to go,
Still, I become the same when this shadow appear..
Shadow of a long lost deceiver,
Who had turned me into a stone,
Also made it sure to hammer it down before he would go.
Here, I am again curling up on the floor,
Tears all over the face which should have been shadded years ago.
The shadow haunts my dreams and scares me,
It appears in every loved one's face whenever there is chance or so.
It makes me hate and run for my life from every loving soul I meet,
And I fall again with empty ends and hurt knees.
I want you to die,
I want you go and let me move on,
I can't afford to lose those smiling faces,
Who makes me feel alive..
Its enough now, I don't deserve your presence,
I want to forget you, you my betrayer shadow..



Love
Dharitri

Poem: She said she is happy! (dream after my granny expired)

I see her sitting on a bed, In the middle of a room, In plain white clothes like she liked. Starts to speak with her voice so soft, "Go to your home and tell everyone that I am in no more pain, Instead I am very happy and God Himself has brought me here, Tell them to not worry about me as I am better than I ever was, Just tell them that life moves on, And they too need to do so." I am on my way back now and everywhere I see the dead, Some suffering, some in pain and some trying to attack me too, I am running so fast as I can, But not reaching my destination. I hit something or something hit me, I fell on the ground. I find myself on my bed and its morning. That was a dream and she was my granny, She said she is happy! She said she is happy!



Love
Dharitri
Written on 04-11-2012